Photo by Lisa Jay
It’s been nearly nine months since I put pen to paper. Or fingers to keyboard.
I just wasn’t able to write during the last 9 months.
Initially it was because of the morning sickness. I was just so sick every night that as soon as Birdy was in bed, I passed out from exhaustion. If I didn’t go to sleep, I started vomiting.
Then as the pregnancy progressed further, (we got through the dreaded 12 week ultrasound without any bad news!), we started to wonder if maybe this pregnancy would actually result in a baby! But I still didn’t really dare to hope. And I just couldn’t bring myself to write about it. What if I wrote about the pregnancy and then something went wrong? Then I would have to write about that too.
So I stayed quiet. At least on this blog. I kept thinking that when the time was right, I’d start writing again. But I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. After sharing so much of my last 6 failed pregnancies, I decided to keep this one to myself. It was like there was just too much at stake. Too much going on emotionally. And if I can’t share openly what I’m really going through, then why write anything at all? If a blog is going to be anything, it should at least be personal. And real.
So here we are now. At the end of a three-and-a-half-year heartache and the beginning of a whole new little miracle.
Molly Jean Macdonald Roe was born on November 21 at 8.40pm after a fantastic birth. I looked at her in amazement. ”You’re real,” I said as I held her in my arms for the first time. ”And you’re alive. And you’re perfect.”
But more about the birth later.
For now, we’re just all enjoying the fact that she’s here.
And that she’s real. And she’s alive. And she’s perfect.
xx
Serena
Yay! Welcome back to blogging Katrina, and welcome to the world Molly.
Jennzy
Love Love Love that photo! Congrats and welcome back
Aly
That photo brings me to tears every time I see it! Love you Miss Molly.
Rodney Olsen
Wonderful to see the blog back in action.
So, on a completely different topic, remember what you were doing exactly twelve months ago?
katrinaroe
I was just thinking about that yesterday Rodney. It’s my birthday and wedding anniversary on Sunday and last year I was in PNG for it. What an amazing time we had!
Jennifer Reid
So great to see you back blogging Katrina! And look forward to hearing all about Miss Molly
xx
Sarah
Hi Katrina,
I found your blog through Hope1032 and I so wish I had found it sooner! (although, maybe that would have been a tad disappointing since you had such a long hiatus lol) – I’m really looking forward to reading a mummy blog that honours God and will be in line with my values as a mother, rather than needing to sift through for the good stuff.
And Molly is just beautiful
Sarah
Melissa
Congratulations! She is just beautiful
hotlyspiced
I found your blog through Lisa’s photo shoot. Congrats on the arrival of Molly Jean. I’m so sorry to hear about your previous six pregnancies. That is just devastating. I can’t imagine how anxious you must have been through your entire pregnancy with Molly.
hotlyspiced
Oh, and I listen to Hope 103.2 ALL the time. Congrats on the work you’re doing there.
Monica
Oh Katrina congratulations! I’ve never met you but I felt you shared so much of yourself through your blog. You are so good at expressing your raw feelings that I feel privileged to read your blog.
Congratulations Katrina and family! And hello Molly!